Hi! Yes, I'm still alive, just haven't had much time on my hands, still pretty busy over here. I thought I'd stop by and update on the latest cycle review though. I don't know if you noticed, but last month there wasn't a cycle review. That actually wasn't my fault, my doctor had the audacity (lol) to take a vacation. So now you you get two cycle reviews in one, lucky you!
It actually works out pretty well, because the last two cycles were pretty similar. Same old same old with the clomid and progesterone shots and tons of supplements in between. The side effects of, well, some of the many possible things really kicked up though. I had nonstop headaches pre-peak (think going to sleep and waking up with headaches for at least a week, ugh) then post peak nausea that made me plan my walking routes but what trash cans I could stop by if necessary (luckily was never necessary). So... that was fun.. if you call barely functioning fun.
I noticed that pre-peak my mucus quality was pretty poor, even though I was on ALL the mucus enhancers, and post-peak I lost all my dry days I had been gaining. Then I got some results from my first round of blood tests and ultrasounds and I couldn't quite interpret them, but I knew they weren't improvements.
So I didn't have a great feeling when my doctor led with "Let's talk about your ultrasounds. Well...your lining looked good." Unfortunately, my estradiol level hinted and my ultrasounds confirmed that I didn't ovulate either of the last two months. Apparently, even after the surgery my body has decided to become clomid resistant, because it's awesome like that. My progesterone levels were ok, but basically just showed that the shots are doing their job.
So, on the plus side, no more clomid. I was really starting to hate that stuff. On the downside, we're on to the last option we're certain we'll try. Next month we'll give letrezole (femera) a shot. If that doesn't work, we might move on to injectibles, but the cost still looks prohibitive, so we've decided we'll cross that bridge if/when we get there.
I'm handling it, well, ok. On the one hand, its pretty upsetting to know that only 6 months after surgery my ovaries stopped working again. Shouldn't they come with like at least a one year warranty or something? And to know we only got one month to try where I ovulated and my hormone levels were good and that didn't work out is pretty sad too. I had started to take the whole ovulating thing for granted, and now I don't know if we'll be able to get my body to ovulate again. It's crazy how quickly things change.
On the other hand, I'm a little bit relieved. It's not just because of the no more clomid thing either. Part of me really wants to see this journey come to an end, one way or another. But that's a complicated bundle of emotions I'll unravel in another post (yes, I am trying to bribe myself to write another post).
In other news, my cramps have also gotten pretty bad the first day or two of my cycle. Like shooting from my lower back down to my knees bad. When I mentioned it to my doctor she said that, since she didn't find any endometriosis, it's probably from inflammation. So she suggested I try going gluten free to see if it helps. Yikes, that calls for a major diet overhaul (which lately has consisted mostly of fast food). But I think I might just give it a shot. I'll be posting about it in the future if I do.
So, I guess I'll see you on the flip side, when we find out if the letrezole worked or if my ovaries have permanently gone on strike.