June 7, 2015

So Little Time, So Much To Say


So I was a little MIA on the blog this last week. Actually, pretty much everywhere other than my desk at work. I did try to get to twitter a little, considering I could write a quick update on there, but that effort mostly failed too. It's not that I don't want to be here, I have at least three posts I want to write, I'm just so short on time.

The new job is great so far. I really like the new field, and my office in particular, though I'm still getting to know everyone. It does require longer hours than I'm used to working, and a little bit of a longer commute, as well as waking up earlier, so it's really been cutting into my free time. After I get home I've only got a few hours before bed time, and I do like spending some of that time paying attention to the Hubs, lol. He's been a lifesaver, by the way. He has been so supportive, and has been picking up the slack around the house, and then some. And when I mentioned I didn't love the office coffee (I'm a little picky) he bought some new beans for home, got me a thermos, and makes me coffee before I head out for the day. Such a sweetheart, that guy.

Oh, and the difficulty of the first week was compounded by the fact that both the Hubs and I were sick. He came down with a cold around Thursday the week before last and I had it by Saturday :(. That's the first time I've gotten sick in a long time, and I'm always such a baby when I'm sick. It ruined all my plans to prepare for the week, since I couldn't even leave the bed, let alone the house, so no shopping or cleaning got done. Oh well.

Oh, and I also realized mid week that our next infertility ministry meeting was in 2 weeks and I hadn't gotten started on preparing and spreading the word like I had planned. I spent my lunches making phone calls and my evenings posting on Facebook and reaching out via emails, so tiring. It looks like we have a few other parishes in the area that are going to run our bulletin announcement though! Now I have to get our speech prepared for our announcing at church next weekend!

I know I still owe you guys a cycle review (and a weigh day) but hopefully I'm the only one keeping track. I made my appointment earlier than usual so I could actually go, considering I couldn't really just take my first day of work off, so some of my lab results weren't in yet. I'm still deciding whether I'll wait for the specifics of those before I get my post up.  One of these days I'll get back to a weight watchers meeting so I can get a weigh day post up again too.

On top of it all, I've been in a little bit of a funk the last few days. I know it's probably just because I'm pmsing, but its still not fun. I'm just a bit hurting and sad right now. As much as I love the new job and advancing my career, it's weird to take a step that pretty much assumes we won't be getting pregnant any time soon. On its own that's hard, which is multiplied by my being surrounded by fertile people. I'm happy for them, its just hard. I don't want to avoid my friends, but the reminders of what I might never have are hard to handle right now. I'd love to know how other people handle friendships with fertile people, because I just don't know how to do it right now.

So, on that happy note, that's the summary of what I've been up to when I haven't been here. Hopefully I can get another post up in less than a week this time :).

7 comments:

  1. i've been suffering with the lack of time to blog too.

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    1. Sometimes life just gets in the way. But it looks like we've both been doing better this week :).

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  2. PMS, plus being sick, plus the stress of a new job (even when it's good stress)? I'd say it makes sense that you're in a bit of a funk. Praying that it passes soon for you, because they are no fun!

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    1. Haha, well when you put it that way it does make sense. Thank you for the prayers!

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  3. Congratulations on the new job! Your husband sounds like such a sweetie. I don't have any great advice on how to handle being in relationship with fertile people. For me I concentrate on friendships with the ones that are sympathetic to our struggles - won't make light of it, but yet won't dwell on it (I can't stand it when people say "oh, I have no idea how you deal with all of that, you are so strong.") Yuck. I know they mean well, but it just comes off the wrong way. Anyway, I guess my point is you need to do what you need to do to preserve your sanity. Especially on Facebook...unfollow is my favorite tool. You can check in when you need to, but won't be bombarded in your daily feed. Just my simple $0.02. I will pray that your continued transition to the new job goes well.

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    1. Thanks for the congratulations and sharing your thoughts. Yes, the Hubs is a sweetie, and still making me coffee every day :). I like the idea of focusing on people who are sympathetic, and definitely get what you mean by the dwellers, I hate pity camouflaged like that. I love unfollow too, though things always get through. Thank you for the prayers! You are in my prayers too.

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